Letter To Alice In Wonderland
Hey, I think I have some explaining to do,
I know it's been a long time - hell, it's been years -
since the last time you wanted to look upon my face,
before it changed and became so cruel.
Hey, maybe you don't know yet, but
for all the good it did me, I really did love you,
and not for a second doubt that none was true,
for proof, go count my every cut.
And that's the reason I had to get out,
you were bad for me, driving me blind,
as I was fighting two addictions entwined,
that's the main reason, it's the main shout.
When he came around, I saw a ray of sunlight,
but you always made me ooze with gloom,
I longed for his touches, to escape my doom,
it's not your fault, it was love at first sight.
He was unreachable, you no longer my muse,
he a shiny new toy, when I knew just how you tick,
and I started building up my walls, brick by icy brick,
shutting you out, lighting a new love fuse.
Don't misunderstand, you did nothing wrong,
it was the wrong place, wrong time, hormones raging,
no place for soft-hearted souls, bipolarity engaging,
feelings always way too feeble or too strong.
And don't you tell me that it would bug you just as much
if I was standing in your place and you in mine,
that if you broke a persons heart you'd draw the line,
and never cross it, like I did to re-experience your touch.
I know that it was wrong, but I did what I did,
I was in a dark place, baby, not knowing where to turn,
just wanted to make a change, make the pain of the past burn,
I should have locked myself somewhere, surely you agree?
I didn't delete you, I don't take you for a fool,
in the end you're still my friend with memories we shared,
I know you loved me more than he ever, ever cared,
but you're the girl, and that's boy number 2 to you...