My word... I felt so sad reading this.. because I feel as though I can relate to the words you have written. This is a very strong piece of literature. The words you chose beautifully illustrate the visual of pain that I could sense as I read...
Thank you so much! these are basically the crucial points of my relationship with my ex. why it all fell apart...why it took me so long to get through the pain of losing him.. Thank you for reading and for the amazing comment!
I understand completely. I went through the same exact thing with my first love. It took me a little more than a year to finally get over him. Before that, I was a zombie. When it finally happened though, I felt so free like a tremendous weight had been finally lifted from my shoulders.
You were lucky, it took me longer than that, every time I thought I was over him something happened that made me suffer again.. Oh I know! It feels amazing once you get the negative emotions out of your system for good!
I would have dreams about them every night. It seemed like my mind didn't want me to forget him, though I found out that dreaming about him was my mind's way of helping me to get over him faster. It worked out well in the end, though it would drive me crazy when I would have them.